Johnny week 19

What great week…. my Franklin focus was the virtue enthusiasm…. What a good time for this to be my focus….Last Monday I began teaching a new intake course ( first timers) for the Canadian Coast Guard Rescue Specialist training…a customized first aid training course that prepares for the inevitable variables that doing first aid treatments on the water will bring. We focus on strong first aid skills, adaptability, ingenuity, and staying focused on the overall objective, get people to where they need to go, regardless of the obstacles….I must say, my passion and enthusiasm were on display this week. I love my job, and have gained much experience in real world situations that seemingly throw the book out the window… Being forced to stay focused, adjust on the fly and meet the objective, is something I can honestly say I am very good at….I have a genuine excitement about the times I was challenged to my limits and succeeded. I know from actual comments that my students are comforted and inspired by my crazy stories. I explained where I screwed up, and how those lessons stuck with me forever…. I explained when and why I broke certain rules, in order to best achieve the overall objective. I explained how the basic approach, of the primary survey, memorized and applied every single time, in the same order, will always keep you from making mistakes ( major ones) … Serious first aid scenarios are very stressful and nerve racking…I know it takes many years before you can roll up on any situation, and feel confident you know what to do… my students are gaining confidence, and enthusiasm as every day goes by. We drill and re drill the basics, I add new elements and complications that force them to think, and adapt, and overcome, force them to keep moving forward keeping the universal objectives in mind…. throughout this course (MKE), I realize how much my job exercises many of the principles of the course…. when in the field, my job is literally to help people… to go when no one else will, to be their hero… now I am training future hero’s, giving them the positive, confident mental attitude they need, so that they can tackle any adverse situation, using their knowledge skills, and resources to do their absolute best with what they are handed…. To never give up or get stuck, but rather to regroup, reset, and persist….I am honored to be in this position, and take my role very seriously, but I love making the course fun, and empowering, with this approach people learn so much more effectively in my observations… rather than a high pressure military approach…I am always amazed at how much I learn about myself daily , and I have really been enjoying observing myself be inspired, and be inspiring…. No I have not been prefect on all my MKE chores every week, but once again I am inspired… like my students, I need to get out of my comfort zone, and embrace my challenges, they always lead to the most profound lessons that become engrained in you… it was a great week, our class is working as a team, we all have strong PMA ‘s, 2 more weeks to go, these kids are going to be first aid rock stars…. and I will have helped them get there….Cool!

Once again….HAPPY!

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Johnny Week 18

Hello blogledites, out of our caves we come for another blog post….what is it this week…am i on step, doing all I can, staying positive? Am I following the chores. (haven’t gone too far on the shapes, but I will make more). Overall a good week.

What IS awesome is that I have been getting my 12 year old boy to write his gratitudes to himself, nice things he has done. ( I’m glad there are some..lol) three things he is grateful for, and a positive experience in the last 24hrs…I also bought him the book, ” Jonathan Livingston Seagull. I loved this book. I have been getting him to update me on the progress of the story each day. With some warning I finally told my son no more after school media , books and music only…. Overall he was very hesitant at first, going on about how it interferes with his play time,( mostly shite video games},,,, but over the course of the week he has had a shift…..he definitely gave minimal effort at first…BUT… yesterday after school he was waiting for me when I got home a bit late., he was excited to read his gratitudes…he was finally giving more than one word answers..like what are you grateful for…food….geesh,… amazingly enough he started tapping into realizing how pampered and easy life is for him , and feeling grateful for all he has, the million good things compared to the handful of bad things

On top of that, the best thing ever happened.

I PLAY MUSIC, and I have lots of amazing gear, many different instruments….The boy is finally learning some good music theory at school, and out of nowhere he comes home and says ” I want to play guitar” This was music to MY ears.

First of all… I am a guitar player, and I have been for over 30 yrs ( yikes)…as I said, I also own many different instruments ( sax, clarinet, banjo, trombone, mandolin, fiddle, drums, and a pile of percussion stuff. I struggled hard with waiting for the time he wanted to play, I encouraged him to try any one regularly…I had suggested we practice guitar lots, but he has small hands, and didn’t get instant results, so he never pursued it….he did however latch onto the drums and has become quite proficient. He has always been and remains a fearless singer with great pitch and charisma as well…. both of us were pleased that I was about to show him some stuff without either of us getting frustrated…haha…. he quickly learned a few chords and bass lines, and has since getting getting up early before school at like 6:15 to play for and hour and a half before school….whaaaat?….I was amazed… and very excited for him, and for our future father son show, which I have been slowly manifesting for years… and thinking about that a lot lately…I believe doing his writing of gratitudes and positive experiences, looking for acts of kindness, and feeling good about himself, the tools for staying in a positive mindset, have pushed him over the threshold, where he is willing to work towards getting good at something….he sees me succeeding with some of my disciplines, and he has engaged…I couldn’t be more excited, it’s inspiring me too. IAm going to support and nurture this new challenge in his life and pass on a much knowledge as I can.

HAPPY!

Week 17HJ Johnny

Hello again everyone in the blogosphere…..As always, another amazing week of incredible insights, humbling reminders, and continued focus, and concentration.

Ill always be amazed at the speed of certain shifts….. In the middle of my best week yet, staying really positive, it happens, it seems all your hard work goes for a shit in one moment…..I can’t help but laugh…. I was so focused… feeling like I am love, I am the light, nothing could interrupt this high…. being as kind and generous as i can imagine…..sadly i did not realize how much more i could do…..a moment comes where something i didn’t do well comes to light, and into discussion….. at that very moment I was picked up and stuffed in a sound proof plexi glass box…. i watched in horror as my old blueprint, fueled by my demanding, defensive, insecure ego, behaves in ways I was sure we’re gone, couldn’t be conjured, do not work….. you watch yourself saying and doing the exact opposite of what you want to be saying and doing…lol…. the moments pass, and calmer heads prevail….i eventually can see what had just happened….. it is a very quickly delivered, harshly accepted reminder, that one never really has it all figured out, and should refrain from pontificating, regardless of the purity, passion, and motivation of your intentions…. it’s just the ego trying to prove how smart it is, which somewhat poetically proves just the opposite…….so……back on the bike, get centered…. read affirmations on who you actually are, who you intend to become…. have a sit, play some music, go for a walk, read the scroll…. find some bliss…. peacefulness returns, confidence that I got this returns…. every obstacle is an opportunity, to bring me closer to greatness…. do not fray from the exercises, your promises, your services, even for a day…. or it all falls apart in your hands…. immediately….. stay in the flow, focus on the desired out comes, not on how to get there….. this hero is answering the call, …setbacks, plot twists, flesh wounds, will only fuel my resolve….I will succeed…. what a great week…. looking forward to Sunday.

Johnny Week 17: Embrace the Suck!

This week (like all others it seems) has been amazing. I am enjoying the Franklin makeover and I’m focusing on the virtue of self-control. I am still experiencing some what of a high from kindness week and am still consciously performing as many kindnesses and observing as many kindnesses as I can.

Lots of things have been coming to me at the right time this week ,videos coming across my social feed, memes with inspirational quotes relating exactly to what have been meditating on ( grappling with…lol), certain conversations with an unexpected person, situations that continue to allow me to see the kindness and beauty in people and things that I never noticed before, including myself.

One was a video of a man enthusiastically, and colorfully at times telling his story of a rough childhood, adolescent depression, difficult, puposeless early adulthood followed by his massive shift, which started his journey towards becoming a navy seal. He succeeded, but not until his third attempt…..3 hell weeks in one year. Injury physically stopped him from being able to complete the first two attempts, the third, still injured, he completed anyway. He forced himself to embrace the Suck, now he had some real suck to deal with compared to most of us, but his advice was to do something that sucks every day… If you don’t want to clean out the car, do it any way, if you don’t want to do the dishes, do them, do laundry, walk the dog, clean the gutters, rake leaves, chop firewood…. Anything….Do them anyway…embrace them, that is when we grow…. It’s like og says, I can increase my accomplishments of yesterday, a hundred fold or more….no longer will I indulge in praise for self deeds which are too small to acknowledge. I can accomplish more, and I will.

So, since these well timed powerful reminders, I am doing just that…. Doing things I know are good for me, but require dedication and discipline. Small things in the big picture, but a physical expression of my desire and commitment to grow, and be better….I could tell you exactly all the things I’m doing, the details don’t matter. What does matter is that I am feeling successful…….I am being positive, kind, encouraging, and disciplined, with self control… My first three virtues in the makeover…. As a result of the last 16 weeks, I am now looking forward to doing most of my sucky activities and embrace the challenge, feel the friction, embrace the Suck. I feel really good after doing them…. It’s awesome…. They will soon be habits that I enjoy, and do without thought.

I am focusing on the thoughts I want, the outcomes I want, not the ones I don’t want…. I’m ready to give myself permission to use my power, to create the exact reality I want, I give myself permission to be happy!

Can I have an AMEN!

I never give up, I persist, and I succeed!

Week 16  Kindtagious

I have been enjoying this week very much. I find myself fully revitalized on my MKE mission, I have some time and space to focus the way I want to on the exercises, the readings, and the always challenging mental diet.

The MKE exercises have been amazing,  great tools, brain trainers, to keep my own goals and behaviors in my mind, with the use of repetetive readings, and associations with shapes, colours and index cards. Now they are pretty much habits, good habits……But I must say, this shift into looking for the virtues in other people’s actions has been the eye opener that was promised. The Franklin makeover is really resonating with me, as a practical application of all that we have been learning.

This week of kindness has been particularly powerful. Firstly reading all the RAKs on the kindness page has been wonderful, people are getting into it, and myself too, I have been visiting and posting kindness’ every day. It has inspired me to think of new ways to be kind, and notice kindness all around me.

All of a sudden I am having some real success with the mental diet…I don’t think I’ve made it a whole day yet, but really close…a very interesting thing happened to me on the way to work the other day. Myself and 3 crew mates travel by truck for three hours to get to our remote work site on the west coast or Vancouver island. During the trip my MKE course came up. We had a laugh when I started saying all the acronyms we use in the course, because we have an incredible amount of them in the coast guard as well.  I wasn’t nervous of talking about it with the boys, and they quickly saw my passion for the course. 

I have often been a bit of a crusty sailor so to speak, with a sharp sarcastic wit, and for me to be attempting to be so kind and gentle and to better myself in such ways took them a little bit by surprise. Before our truck ride was over we were already catching each other voicing negative thoughts, we were reminding each other already to maintain our PMA( positive mental attitude). Being government workers it is very easy to complain and whine about our system and our management approach and the ‘waste of money and resources and a whole host of other issues. These can keep you in a negative mindset. We did however remind ourselves just how good our jobs are, and how fortunate we are to have them and this became the new focus. As the week has progressed it hasn’t gone away, each day we are choosing as a group to focus on positive ideals and positive attitudes about our situation, anytime one of us says something noticeably negative not just me but the other boys would say” hey where is your PMA” this made me chuckle and warm my heart. Just today as I was in my room one of my crewmates was whistling Zippity Doo Dah what a wonderful day while getting his laundry,  I came out of my room and said wow good song buddy and he replied “well I’m just keeping up my PMA” again I laughed this time out loud.

Kindness is contagious, once you address the concept and bring it out in the open, people naturally want to be kind, it’s easy for us, somehow we have been trained to complain and see the negative side of people and situations . When you start looking for kindness and positivity you see kindness and positivity all around you , I didn’t think it would be this noticable when I began the makeover, but now I see it to be very true.

 The mental diet seems to be taking care of itself when kindness is your focus.  My humor has changed, my routines are changing,  my willingness to do things for other people is expanding , knowing that helping others, is truly helping myself, is a wonderful feeling. I think every week is going to be kindness week in my world from now on, the feeling of excitement I’m getting to find ways to be more kind, and see it motivating others to be more kind, is very rewarding and inspiring, you could say its “Kindtagious”

I am grateful for all I have, and all I am learning. My future self is an amazing person, we are becoming good friends. …. Cheers.

Blog 15 the Ripple-ectomy

Hello to all who stumble across this blog. It seems every week has its intense moments. A few short weeks ago I was very discouraged at my performance in the MKE.  As I was at my lowest, that’s when it happened, it seemed every lesson, every scroll, points discussed in the webinars, were absorbed on a deeper level at the very moment I needed them the most. My partner, my guide, my tribe, and the blogs of others reinforced I am not alone, these new habits, this remembering who we are, is a true shock to our system.

The ferocity with which my old blueprint wants to protect itself is quite remarkable…To replay some of the things I had thought or said last week, to be that third person in the room, and see my behaviour, was an amazing display of the ego feeding the subby, with undesirable information, embracing the exact opposite of the laws and concepts I KNOW to be TRUE …. it actually makes me laugh, well..in an overtired laughing/crying at the same time kind of way.

What I am thinking and feeling THIS week, compared to last week, is a staggering difference. Accepting these moments not as “set backs” , but rather the exact opposite, wonderful opportunities to recognize behaviours and beliefs I wish to eliminate, has re-ignited my desire to succeed, fanning that burning desire to take advantage of the abundance around me, in me, the abundance that is me…. Realizing and directing this abundance in concert with my greatest gifts, to live a life of purpose and fulfillment, is the only true path to happiness.

I am here to learn how to use the most amazing tool ever created… My Brain!….. With every wave of realization, of intent, of earnest desire to be better, I become the center of a powerful ripple, casting out in all directions, influencing and mingling with all it moves through. I am claiming and understanding my responsibility to use this gift by casting out love in all directions at all times…. giving the world a  “Ripple-ectomy” if you will. ( lol…I couldn’t get away from that)

As it turns out, I really wasn’t far behind at all. Diligently getting back on the exercises, immediately had a huge effect, the index cards are awesome, so many great memories of things I have done over the years, it has been emotional at times…I am starting to hone in on powerful memories, where I was in the flow naturally, these re-enforce the notion, I am already there, I have always been amazing, now I am finally starting to understand how to experience it on purpose with Love and Service as my foundation.

An new thing I did is record myself reading the entire weekly lesson, also the current scroll….I found it very powerful to hear myself reading these ultra wise lessons, it was like being in third person again, I can step back and hear/see/ visualize myself learning, and clearly see and feel the concepts being absorbed….I intend to do this for all the lessons and scrolls so far over the next week or so. I am excited about the process.  As a First Aid instructor, I am always amazed at how easy it is to see the big picture from 5 feet away, you can anticipate what is next, see the perfect path, recognize what is being missed, watch the thought process, see it evolve and improve with…you guessed it…PRACTICE…. for myself and many students observing, this is the time when real learning happens, a connection is made, you find a way to absorb the process, by some association in your mind, whether that is an acronym or a tune or anything that works.. It felt the exact same way when I was listening to my self reading. The Master Key lessons are amazing, so matter of fact, logical, scientific,  and annoyingly simple to conceive. The scrolls are so powerful, every time, different parts continue to jump out at me all the time…..and newly, the Franklin Makeover is really hitting home for me.

The Makeover almost feels like the first game of the season, after tryouts, practice, memorizing plays, getting in shape. My ability to see subtle gestures is amplified, I notice people living the virtues in the makeover, most importantly, I notice myself living them ! Kindness is such a wonderful virtue to look for, see in action…once you look, you realize it is everywhere….Our world isn’t filled with a bunch of selfish jerks like we are fed to believe, every person enjoys kindness, whether they admit it or not..its in the original blueprint which we all share… I have looked at people and can sense how they are feeling, what they are thinking….. good or bad…..relaxed or stressed….fearful or fearless…. and by an unexpected hello, or friendly gesture, a smile, a tip of the hat, bring them hurling out of their daydream to an eye to eye connection with another human, who happens to be aggressively emanating love towards them. I have always been that friendly, courteous guy, but to do it consciously, and to really be looking for the effect it has on people and me, is proving to be an awesome experience. I can easily visualize how my smile ripples throughout each persons day, they smile too, they forget a worry, they do something nice for someone else, and the ripple goes on, who knows how far, how good is your imagination? A Ripple-ectomy is a powerful thing you know…..I can sense myself changing the world, and I am watching very carefully,  to be able to observe others changing the world. This is a very empowering experience….these virtues are on my mind, the more I think about them, the more I see them all around me, the more I consciously choose to “BE” these virtues, the quicker they once again become, the foundation of my behaviour and beliefs….As an added bonus, they are all very contagious, I trust and know, that by giving myself permission to be amazing, gives anyone who encounters me, the same permission to themselves….one loving, selfless act after another, our love and kindness enthusiastically hurled in all directions, bathing everything in our light, living how we were intended to…….and the Ripple-ectomy begins.

 

I am so grateful to have the time and space to really get into my blog today…I am sensing that the “Ripple-ectomy”could easily be crafted into a humorous musical/ theatrical movement……into the “Love Onion” Book it goes for some future masterminding…..As I read my blog back I realize that yes, this is the perception and path that rings true to my core. I must increase my realization and embodiment of these concepts everyday. I persist and I succeed, because you persist and succeed….Thank you!

 

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Week 14 blog : The Love Onion

After a busy holiday season,  I found my self a bit detached  from my MKE routine. I couldn’t stop myself from only noticing what I wasn’t doing and feeling guilty for it….Arrgh…..My week 13 blog which I did around New Years, was me reminding myself of all the lessons of the scrolls, and proof of what I’ve absorbed, and a blueprint for my upcoming year….On many levels it didn’t ring true, as I felt like I wasn’t embodying all these lessons. I decided to write my wonderful guide Jonathan an email….It turned out to be a bit of  a blog, shared with someone I trust, and someone I  could be open and honest with. It went like this.

Hi Jonathan

Yes I have been getting your comments, and I appreciate them very much…I thought I had approved them, just checked and you were right, they are now… I’ve definitely had some real difficulty finding the space and time to stay focused, and thorough over the last month…. And was really off the program for a while… It’s funny, during our last tribe meeting I was basically whining about how hard it was, with all the classic excuses that were clearly highlighted in the weekly webinar, which I listened to after….I felt a bit embarrassed later, I’m sure you guys saw it clearly…..I’ve been having trouble with staying positive, when I get behind on my work. I am a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to work, do it right, or don’t bother. I can’t let “don’t bother”take over, it has been more powerful than ever over the last couple of weeks. Strong waves of resistance from my old blueprint, desperately trying to preserve itself. My blog post reflects what I intend to be, sooner or later. I must embrace these setbacks,  they motivate me to reaffirm my commitment to self awareness, self direction, self love.

So, in the end, despite all the anxiety, worry, and fear, of not being enough…. The shift happens, and you realize you are already there…. It’s just a process of peeling layers back, and let myself BE how truly amazing I am.

The mental space I need to focus is coming…I get to go back to work soon….lol…..I was going to call out to the tribe or you for some motivation, inspiration, sympathy really.  “No need !” its my choice, and I will never find a good justification, for stopping this journey….it is so worth while….I will persist.

Thanks for letting me give a personal blog to you on here. I really appreciate it.

Happy New Year Jonathan. I hope it brings you peace and prosperity.

Cheers,

John

So….at the end,  I realized, I am perfect already. I have been reading that, and saying that, but this time there was a moment, a wave that pulsed through me…. a deeper realization, and an acceptance of my true nature. Suddenly, it became a tool to combat my self negative thoughts.  Maybe it was just the right level of sleepiness, or tipsiness, combined with Og sinking in finally, that opened my heart and my mind to the fact that I am there already, to see that I am perfect, and that I hold all the wisdom of the universe in all my cells, I just need to give myself permission to BE amazing. The exercises and course work, help me see, remember, and stay in that blissful realization…  When I get close to it, I become afraid of the light that is me…. I just need to peel back all the layers of my Love Onion, and expose the core, that overwhelming, intoxicating, pungent, powerful, raw, essence, which longs to be expressed. My core will bring tears to the eyes of others, and will automatically start peeling off their layers too.

I choose to simmer myself in the warm feelings of joy, peacefulness, and harmony, until all the layers of my love onion soften, separate, sizzle, and release their bitterness. I reduce down, I become sweet and caramelized. No one can pass me by without noticing that pleasing aroma, being drawn to my essence and wanting to indulge.

This term “Love Onion” , came up a few weeks ago in a mastermind with my partner. We were hashing out ideas for our live musical, theatrical , interactive performances we are developing, and we realized how wonderful a metaphor the onion really is for what we want to convey. Peel away at our dry, stinky exterior, go deeper and deeper, exposing the moist, savory, sweet nature of the core of our beings, then stay there, simmer in it, and a transformation takes place…. from eye watering overwhelming bitter pungency, to sweet, buttery irresistible aromas. Both are realities, but one is certainly more enjoyable…lol.

This process of visualizing, and creating this production, with visual aids, music, and movement, are key to my firing and wiring these concepts in myself.

In time I will embody them, and become  a master of expressing the struggle, and the payoff, of believing. Persisting on a quest to be better, to find my true purpose, our true purpose, our true selves. I am worthy, I am motivated, I am amazing, we are all amazing……It’s time we let ourselves enjoy it. I will persist…..No matter what.

Cheers